Baring My Soul

1. Insecurity about my own abilities.
2. Horrible attitude some days. (Is it just me? Or are hormones to blame?)
3. Guilt about things I haven't done with/for my child yet.
4. Regrets about past decisions although I "swear" I've let them go. Lol!
5. Disappointed about the ways I DON'T care for mySELF & my body.
6. Occasionally sensitive in ways I'm not proud of.
7. Super hard on myself about certain things.
8. I don't like my size or shape (rare but it does happen to me).


**I could go on & on with this list!**

      I'm not sure why, but I always have this need to be blatantly honest. Even when a circumstance probably needs to be lied about, I simply.....can't. I'm not saying ever but it's very hard for me to do. Besides inspiring people, I feel a "calling" to be relatable. There is so much pretense in our world today, so much glam, so much glory, that people forget to be real. It's okay to be a normal human being with normal issues (or abnormal). 

     We all face outer conflicts & inner warfare. Money doesn't exempt you. Fame nor fortune exempt you. Your body curvature, your nose job, fancy car, wine cellar selections, boob inflation, penis enlargement, educational background, talents, skills, loss or gain of pounds, circle of popular friends, designer labels, and any other material or egotistical possession, exempts you from being human. Yes, having certain things may make life easier, but take a look at a celebrity graveyard. All the glamour & prestige in the world couldn't save them from themselves.


     The list above is only a few things I struggle with. Some of the issues I've become a pro at handling but others I haven't. It's not comfy to bare my soul in this way but I feel compelled to. I need YOU to know that you are not alone in the issues you face. YOU are not the only one who has inner demons. 

     I can say at this point in my life, that I'm a warrior. I am resilient & I've learned how to face my demons. In the past I ran from them but we all know we can't hide from ourselves! I am an extremely positive person 91% of the time. However, I admittedly have days that I just want to throw up my hands in disgust with life. There are days when I just can't find that blessed silver lining. 
      
     YES, I AM HUMAN! I can inspire you to skip your little fanny right on up Mt. Everest but dealing with myself is on another level! I know I am my greatest friend & enemy in one! And I'm not ashamed of that. I am proud of who I've become. I am excited about who I am becoming!

     I never know why I'm pushed to write about specific topics but this is what you get tonight. I hope that if nothing else, you are comforted in knowing that we are ALL human. You are not worthless, crazy, a failure, blah, blah, blah! I started this blog to track my successes & slip-ups as I set out to conquer my goals. I blog about whatever comes to mind but you can always believe that I'm giving you all of me. My experiences. My passions. My truth. 

     Join my blog. Become a follower. Share your experiences & let's be human together. If you don't tell your own truth, someone will "create" it for you. You may have a story that you consider to be the makeup of your not-so-spectacular life. But remember, you are the author. God has given you all that life is to create a new story. So don't be ashamed to be YOU & let your light reveal the dark corners you hide in. Someone else is lurking there too needing YOUR light to reveal their truth.

     In all ways & in all things, stay BEYOND blessed  <3

Never Give Up

You are driven, focused, & moving forward. Things are beginning to happen for you. All is going well & then BAM, it happens: people begin to walk away! Yes,this happens to most who dare to step out & live their dreams! 

     Everyone cheering you on in the beginning won't be cheering when you reach the finish line. Some of your loudest cheerleaders will be the very ones to drop out of the race. I'm not writing this to discourage but to prepare. YOU must be your loudest cheerleader & most loyal fan! In pursuit of my own goals, I have lost people who I thought were my support system. But, this isn't the worst that can happen. I believe that EVERYTHING occurs for a reason. I believe even more deeply, that the people who are SUPPOSED to be with you, will be!! 

     What doesn't inspire you to move forward holds you back! Dead weight right? What you must realize is that everyone cannot handle your success. You have to love YOU enough to let go of THEM! Don't let guilt, or fear, or uncertainty, cause you to lose out on your fulfillment! If you are serious about enjoying your life, pace yourself & go for it! If not, others & their negativity will drag you down.

     Balance is key in the pursuit of a goal. Never neglect your health. You must make exercising, healthy eating, water consumption, rest/relaxation, and fun MORE important than anything else! Without your health you cannot accomplish anything! On another note, do not neglect your responsibilities (kids, spouse, job, bills).  Your children need hugs & stories read at night. Your spouse needs those inappropriate touches you steal when your kids aren't looking & the late night "cuddling" (clears throat) you love to engage in. The simple things still matter. Balance matters for your loved ones, for your sanity, & for your success.

No matter who comes & goes, keep moving forward. Sometimes the road you think you're going to take ends up being a detour. Trust yourself & the higher power you rely on to guide your way. Your path is your path & everyone cannot handle what that entails. So when you reach a milestone & turn to find your loudest cheerleaders M.I.A., you will be prepared. You will move on! "Can't stop, won't stop!"