Baring My Soul

1. Insecurity about my own abilities.
2. Horrible attitude some days. (Is it just me? Or are hormones to blame?)
3. Guilt about things I haven't done with/for my child yet.
4. Regrets about past decisions although I "swear" I've let them go. Lol!
5. Disappointed about the ways I DON'T care for mySELF & my body.
6. Occasionally sensitive in ways I'm not proud of.
7. Super hard on myself about certain things.
8. I don't like my size or shape (rare but it does happen to me).


**I could go on & on with this list!**

      I'm not sure why, but I always have this need to be blatantly honest. Even when a circumstance probably needs to be lied about, I simply.....can't. I'm not saying ever but it's very hard for me to do. Besides inspiring people, I feel a "calling" to be relatable. There is so much pretense in our world today, so much glam, so much glory, that people forget to be real. It's okay to be a normal human being with normal issues (or abnormal). 

     We all face outer conflicts & inner warfare. Money doesn't exempt you. Fame nor fortune exempt you. Your body curvature, your nose job, fancy car, wine cellar selections, boob inflation, penis enlargement, educational background, talents, skills, loss or gain of pounds, circle of popular friends, designer labels, and any other material or egotistical possession, exempts you from being human. Yes, having certain things may make life easier, but take a look at a celebrity graveyard. All the glamour & prestige in the world couldn't save them from themselves.


     The list above is only a few things I struggle with. Some of the issues I've become a pro at handling but others I haven't. It's not comfy to bare my soul in this way but I feel compelled to. I need YOU to know that you are not alone in the issues you face. YOU are not the only one who has inner demons. 

     I can say at this point in my life, that I'm a warrior. I am resilient & I've learned how to face my demons. In the past I ran from them but we all know we can't hide from ourselves! I am an extremely positive person 91% of the time. However, I admittedly have days that I just want to throw up my hands in disgust with life. There are days when I just can't find that blessed silver lining. 
      
     YES, I AM HUMAN! I can inspire you to skip your little fanny right on up Mt. Everest but dealing with myself is on another level! I know I am my greatest friend & enemy in one! And I'm not ashamed of that. I am proud of who I've become. I am excited about who I am becoming!

     I never know why I'm pushed to write about specific topics but this is what you get tonight. I hope that if nothing else, you are comforted in knowing that we are ALL human. You are not worthless, crazy, a failure, blah, blah, blah! I started this blog to track my successes & slip-ups as I set out to conquer my goals. I blog about whatever comes to mind but you can always believe that I'm giving you all of me. My experiences. My passions. My truth. 

     Join my blog. Become a follower. Share your experiences & let's be human together. If you don't tell your own truth, someone will "create" it for you. You may have a story that you consider to be the makeup of your not-so-spectacular life. But remember, you are the author. God has given you all that life is to create a new story. So don't be ashamed to be YOU & let your light reveal the dark corners you hide in. Someone else is lurking there too needing YOUR light to reveal their truth.

     In all ways & in all things, stay BEYOND blessed  <3

Never Give Up

You are driven, focused, & moving forward. Things are beginning to happen for you. All is going well & then BAM, it happens: people begin to walk away! Yes,this happens to most who dare to step out & live their dreams! 

     Everyone cheering you on in the beginning won't be cheering when you reach the finish line. Some of your loudest cheerleaders will be the very ones to drop out of the race. I'm not writing this to discourage but to prepare. YOU must be your loudest cheerleader & most loyal fan! In pursuit of my own goals, I have lost people who I thought were my support system. But, this isn't the worst that can happen. I believe that EVERYTHING occurs for a reason. I believe even more deeply, that the people who are SUPPOSED to be with you, will be!! 

     What doesn't inspire you to move forward holds you back! Dead weight right? What you must realize is that everyone cannot handle your success. You have to love YOU enough to let go of THEM! Don't let guilt, or fear, or uncertainty, cause you to lose out on your fulfillment! If you are serious about enjoying your life, pace yourself & go for it! If not, others & their negativity will drag you down.

     Balance is key in the pursuit of a goal. Never neglect your health. You must make exercising, healthy eating, water consumption, rest/relaxation, and fun MORE important than anything else! Without your health you cannot accomplish anything! On another note, do not neglect your responsibilities (kids, spouse, job, bills).  Your children need hugs & stories read at night. Your spouse needs those inappropriate touches you steal when your kids aren't looking & the late night "cuddling" (clears throat) you love to engage in. The simple things still matter. Balance matters for your loved ones, for your sanity, & for your success.

No matter who comes & goes, keep moving forward. Sometimes the road you think you're going to take ends up being a detour. Trust yourself & the higher power you rely on to guide your way. Your path is your path & everyone cannot handle what that entails. So when you reach a milestone & turn to find your loudest cheerleaders M.I.A., you will be prepared. You will move on! "Can't stop, won't stop!"   

    

Reaching For The Stars Isn't Far Enough

I am on fire about living the life of my dreams! Everyday isn't a stroll through rose gardens but it's great to know that the roses exist! WOW!!! Every moment, we get to choose our thoughts, words, and actions. I have decided to take my wildest dreams and magnify them by 10. If I'm gonna go for something, the results are gonna be well worth the efforts.

Imagine what could happen if you took your fears by the neck and used them to your advantage! Learn how to not be afraid of fear. Scared or not, KEEP MOVING! Visualize your destinations and believe you are already living that life. I've always loved the saying "fake it til you make it!" Stare your dreams in the eyes and (together) open the door to your destiny. Stop waiting on others to pat you on the back and give you confirmation. You were born with divine greatness!

My dreams are sooo BIG, I feel like I have to ask for God's permission! The wonderful thing is that I ALREADY HAVE IT! We were all born to use our talents and succeed. Don't be afraid of success or failure. Be afraid of REGRETS. There's no such thing as dreaming too big and the stars are too close to reach for. What you believe will come to pass no matter which end of the totem pole you're holding.

Don't read this and blow it off. If you're lucky, another year will go by with you being alive and well. Choose now whether or not you wanna be closer to achievement or still making excuses.... CHOOSE NOW!!!!!!!


                                                                                   Love ya,
                                                                                   B.A.B.E.

Still Playing With Electrical Tape, Huh?

It's that time again people. Time for self-evaluation & change. I'm now ushering in a new season of life... Change is often challenging & somewhat painful but I've learned not to resist. Resistance is like putting a piece of electrical tape on your skin & then removing it in slow motion. Just for the hell of it. Yeah, stupid & PAINFUL!!! Obviously, I've learned many lessons from this old rival. In other words, I entered the ring with resistance & got my butt whipped many times!! For my fellow southerners that would be "whooped!"

I'm not sure what changes you are facing or decisions you are contemplating. However, it's a lot more fun & meaningful if you choose to just GO FOR IT! Did I hear you say that you're scared? Well GOOD! Fear is actually a great companion when you respect it & use it to your advantage. The one thing you really NEED to fear is regret. 

Please don't spend another day in resistance, denial, or misery because you're afraid to make your dreams a reality. Who cares if things have always been a certain way? Who cares if the people around you won't approve? Whose life are you living anyway? I know this means more to some than to others but you can't let other people dictate your life.  We have each been given a life to LIVE; not just an existence! The gamble is that none of us know the deadline. It could be today or 70 years from now. No matter how you look at it, change is necessary to accomplish anything!

I made the decision a while ago to do the "dang thang." I'm reaching beyond stars because stopping there is a limitation! Change is welcome in my life and I do my best to keep my channels open. I attract only good to me & my family with positive thoughts & words. No more stupid electrical tape for me! I'm standing on the edge & looking directly into the abyss of the unknown. The cool part is that because I have faith, I know exactly where I'm going. Hehe =). Any added blessings along the way are just bonus points!

People, just GO FOR IT! If you need support, reach out to others. Stop being embarrassed & having so much pride. GEEZ! Enough already!... Feel free to post comments & state what your goals are as well as what type of support you're needing. Encourage & support someone else along the way & remember to be the gold others are seeking!

                                                                  Love ya,
                                                                  B.A.B.E.

Put That Middle Finger Down Please!!

Ha ha! Got your attention didn't I?  "Buenos Dias"  beautiful people! If you are alive and able to read this, it's already a GREAT day! I'm excited about everything right now for no particular reason. I feel grateful and aware of what life has to offer. I'm challenging YOU to do the same. Don't you dare stick that middle finger up at me and no foul language people. Yes, it's early but I want to get your attention before the hustle of the world beats me to it. As humans, as parents, as employers/employees, etc, we are always busting our butts to do for someone else. Today, however, is all about YOU!

Wherever you are, take the time to whisper a prayer of thanks for your life (no matter how insane it is). Prepare a breakfast made for a king/queen. Actually TASTE & CHEW your food instead of inhaling it. Go outside and really look at the evidence of Spring. All we usually notice in the morning is the number of state troopers we're trying to dodge as we speed our way to work! THERE ARE TREES AND FLOWERS BLOSSOMING AMONG US PEOPLE! Wake up & pay attention. Slooowww down. If you can drown out the bass coming from our teenagers cars, you may even notice the birds chirping. For all you grumpies, put the guns down! The birds are suppose to do that!

In all seriousness, be good to yourself today. Allow yourself to smile. When you feel the need to yell at someone, choose to laugh it off instead. That's a hard one for me too. If you can't get out to do anything, take a few minutes to be alone at home/work. Read a book.Take a nap. Meditate, if you can stay awake. Shave your entire leg ladies instead of just the bottom half! LOL! Clip a nail or two guys. I'm sure a girl somewhere would appreciate it. Whatever you choose to do, just remember to live in that moment. Don't allow your mind to wander off to plans for next week or the dinner you're making for tomorrow.  And by all means, when someone says "good morning", return the gesture and keep those middle fingers down!! I know you can do it. ENJOY!

                                                                                            Love ya,
                                                                                            B.A.B.E.

What the heck is "I Am The Gold" all about?

I think it's pretty awesome that you asked... While conversing with a friend via facebook I stated, "I don't wanna go for the gold. I wanna be the gold everyone else goes for." This started a spark in me (as many things do) and I decided to finally create a blog.

Webster's dictionary defines gold as "something valued as the finest of its kind." That says it all and is what I desire to be. I will not say that my blog is about one specific thing but I will say that whatever I'm writing about is my unique opinion or experience. I am a woman who wants the greatest things life has to offer and I don't see a problem with that.

My days are usually insane. My mind is usually not far behind. For example, I'm writing this as my three year old daughter pulls on my shirt and cries for me to hold her. However, I will do my best to post new material as often as possible. There will be grammatical errors (although I'm currently a student). I apologize for offending you with my blatant honesty if that ever occurs. Let's see... What else??? Hmmmm... Oh yes, please don't be surprised if I sometimes seem contradictory. I love the freedom of changing my mind about things and I do it well. LOL!

On a serious note, "Muchas Gracias" for taking the time to check me out and become a follower. Let's have some hilarious and adventurous times together! If my baby will nap for me now, those times will begin sooner than you or I think. Until then, BE THE GOLD EVERYONE ELSE GOES FOR!!!
                                                                          Love ya,
                                                                          B.A.B.E.